Not this time…

I have no resolutions this year… No goal that I have created, trying to fool myself and get a pat on the shoulder from all the other resolutionaries! It’s not fun anymore, repeating the same shit, thinking that the more times you say it the more you’re likely to do it. I’m the New Years…

Daily Prompt: Fact

The fact is I couldn’t love you… I wanted to, wanted to believe that I was capable of long term long lasting deeper than body fluids and long distance more intense than sex and more divine than religion, I wanted to, love you forever. but the truth is, I didn’t even love myself. via Daily…

Diary Entry: #1

Ooh I love when you say I want it from the back Me shaking Anxious Anticipating mood for mood No persuasion necessary Because baby I just wanna please you A willing slave Terrified at the thought of freedom. I want you to control Me Directing Cues that I have to follow Not because you say…

Chaotic Beauty

Photo Credited: Pahala Basuki Believe it or not life is beautiful and wild and confusing and all the other awful things that we make it out to be, It’s multifaceted, layered in beginnings childhoods and imagination socialization would have you believe that life is one big dice a game of chance and luck, others talk…

Who Gave You the Right to Procreate?

I almost cried at work tonight! There are few things that penetrate my cold hard exterior that I’ve built in order to do my job. Few things make me feel, makes me think, few things. I met a baby tonight, one who had just begun to live and was almost ready to die. The mommy…

My First…

  I spent 3 days five hours and 27 seconds preparing for my trip I was so wired and tired that I almost ended up missing my flight. And if that was my only plight the sight of the plane scared the SHIT out of me. It reminded me of a sardine can small, tightly…

I hate Black History Month

Still in love with this piece  What can I say about black history month, nothing much it seems. tired of being indignant and ignorant feeding off of misleading propaganda designed to insight and inflate and provoke “us” to roit. I think its a fucking waste looking at a past which is very much like the…

Mirror Mirror

I’m fracturing unraveling renting from the seams as pressure builds within, it should be easy, giving up on things that make you toxic but i’m pathetic attracting leeches like leeches to blood allowing them to suck my essence dry i’m secretly sadistic, pretending to enjoy my pain by hurting others and I’ve been hurting others…

Poetic 

No more poetic clone wars  Stories of love lost  Dead and forgotten  Undertakers attempting in futility  To revive the dead  Frankstein’s monster  An abomination that should’ve never been given thought  Much less life.  No more poetic sandstorms  Of life lived  The only remnants  The dunes of memories  That depresses even the reader.  It’s not enough …

I know I pretend like i don’t need you but…

I want to possess you Demons circling easy prey, I pray that you will love me Totally Completely Forgetting about past Because we are past The last Man… woman We are linked to these bodies By energy You to me Me loving you Wanting to be your shadow Your conscience Your choice Your first thought…

Ronda. ..

She was only diagnosed three days ago but she knew long before that she was dying, and i’d like to think that she’s made peace with it… twenty three year old… all tatted up making mistakes and drawing her own conclusions six months ago, she was invincible doing what those afflicted by youth do best……

What are we…. Exactly?

I know nothing about you it seems caught up in my own mind trying to turn sexship into a friendship or is it fuckship relationship… fuck, shit… I know nothing about you apparently but I can feel you undressing me with just the tone of your voice when all is quiet and i sleep at…